What If...

Well I'm back...

Welcome to 2006. It's been a rough transition for me so far, and I'm not sure how this year will turn out, but it seems to be on par with my last New Years. I feel kind of lost, kind of very lost. I can't say that I know where my life is going at all but I do realize it's time for a change. Whether that's my job, or school or where I live...I don't know. Either way, I have to move on and live my life. Don't know how that'll go.

I don't know what I should do, but I have to figure out something soon.

I've been a little down lately, haven't really had a proper appetite. Suggestions are more then welcome. I've been stressed out at work a lot lately, so I've been slowly trying to find a new job. I haven't even really sat down to vent/write lately, which has left my weblog a little bare for the past month. I should have some holiday pictures up soon, and hopefully I'll get back onto the writing track.

The holidays were...well I don't really know. Good and bad. Got some clothes and movies, gift certificates and a new winter jacket. Got more furniture, which is nice. My back has been hurting me a lot more lately, which is never a good sign. Haven't been sleeping. I think I just need to get back into a routine, maybe school starting will help.

So enough with the complaining...I leave you with the lyrics to a song that I've been listen to a lot lately. Enjoy...

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Here I stand alone with this weight upon my heart,
And it will not go away,
In my head I keep on looking back, right back to the start,
Wonderin' what it was that made you change,
Well I tried but I had to draw the line,
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind,

What if I had never let you go,
Would you be the man I used to know,
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried,
If we could only turn back time,
But I guess we'll never know...

Many roads to take, some to joy some to heart-ache,
Anyone can lose their way,
And if I said that we could turn it back, right back to the start,
Would you take the chance and make the change,
Do you think how it would have been sometimes,
Do you pray that I never left your side,

What if I had never let you go,
Would you be the man I used to know,
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried,
If we could only turn back time,
But I guess we'll never know...

If only we could turn the hands of time,
If I could take it back would you still be mine,
Cause I tried but I had to draw the line,
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind,

What if I had never let you go,
Would you be the man I used to know,
What if I had never walked away,
Cause I still love you more then I can say,
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried,
If we could only turn back time,
But I guess we'll never know...

We'll never know...