Winter's Arrival

With yesterday's snowfall came another life change. Yes, I started a new job...but I actually mean something else.

Over the last few months things have been really up and down. I've reached some sort of emotional state where none of that matters anymore. My life is a lot different than it was six months ago; I'm in a better place in my life. This isn't to say that I'm leaving the past behind me, but I've moved beyond that emotional stress. Things seem a lot brighter and sure I'm still hurt but at least I know I can still be happy.

It's likely that to the majority of readers this will mean absolutely nothing - and no offense intended but I don't plan to explain the fine details. Just know that I am happy and I've reached a point of clarity.

...and now back to our regularly scheduled programming...

Today is Hallowe'en. I decided against dressing up at all, it was a casual day at work. Something told me wearing big red wings to the bank won't really work all too well. Our trainer brought candy (and chocolate) - which was enjoyable. Avoided the chocolate of course...all in all it worked out to be a relaxing day.

Getting along well with my new coworkers which is a plus. It looks like I'm the baby once more - so I have to get myself oriented to that mentality again. One of the people in one of the other classes is actually someone I went to Elementary school with. It was odd running into him. Oh. Brought my novel to work today and tried my hand at editing once more. Slow and steady...

Things definitely seem to be looking up, indeed. I feel like dancing...

What A Name Means...

C	omplicated
H	appy
R	ealistic
I	mportant
S	pirited
T	horned
O	verwhelming
P	opular
H	onourable
E	njoyable
R	ounded

What is in a name? If you learned your name was supposed to be different then what you've always known would it change who you are? Are some people just suited for certain names?

Names are intended to be unique identifiers, but if you do a search for "Christopher" on the web you'll find thousands if not millions of individuals with the same name. Some spell it the same, others use variants. Half of them have the same middle name. So is my name really unique to me? Is the name "Christopher" really that special?

Life has seemed to take a great deal of twists and turns as of late. It seems I may be transferring to a different department at work; not sure what to think about that. My apartment is slowly taking shape and things seemed to have settled into a comfortable routine...for now. Yay for stability.

"We'll be singing, when we're winning.
I get knocked down, but I get up again.
You're never going to keep me down."

A Good 22nd Year

I have recently just returned home from a rather enjoyable evening out with friends. Yesterday, October 14th, was my 22nd Birthday. A group of some of my closest friends and I went to dinner at Palatal where we had a blast and I was forced to stand on a chair while they all sang Happy Birthday. I got several nice cards and some rather useful home items and I even received a custom made stuffed bear, I believe his name is "Princess Flamingo Fairy Queen." He's quite adorable.

Don't ask me how he can be both a Princess and a Queen.

After that we came back to my apartment and had some drinks, cake and hung out talking. Crystal and I moon-walked and several of us swapped work horror stories. Friends started crashing from their long days and some of us decided to go out dancing. We had a blast and I rather enjoyed the slow dances at the end.

All in all it worked out to be an enjoyable birthday. My apartment really felt like home with everyone there and it was enjoyable having my friends all together. Now I'm exhausted and I think I'm going to curl up with the princess and get some sleep...

It seems this has been a good start to my 22nd year.

A Life Offline, But Online All Day LongA Life Offline, But Online All Day Long

Welcome to my new life...

Since July 2006 a lot has changed in my life. Everything has been in a constant state of flux. I moved out on my own in an apartment, went on a wonderful trip to Montreal, caused extensive damage to part of my dominant hand, quit my job and all in all completely changed my life. For the first time in a long time I can finally say I'm happy with where I am in the world...

I'm not taking classes this term - and while that might seem detrimental, I'm not concerned. I'm not terribly hung up on some fake degree that won't get me anywhere in life. I still intend to go for my Bio-Anthropology degree - the subjects fascinate me - however it's not number 1 on my To-Do list. Being happy is. I'll take classes in the Winter and work towards it at my own pace.

Winter has arrived. That makes me want to cry...but with the sudden arrival of fall and this week's recent snowfall I've been reminded that a good time of year is upon us. I don't have to worry about working in a mall and being flustered by Christmas chaos and convorting crowds of confounding customers. I'll be able to relax this holiday season and enjoy what is coming...

First on the list is my 22nd Birthday. That arrives in just two days. A year ago I was rushing to complete my expansive 50,000 word novel - this year I just plan to relax. I don't really have any major plans and don't intend to stress over it. I've stressed over birthday plans for too many years now. Let it come, let's get together and just enjoy the time together...

Next is Hallowe'en...normally not the most involved of holidays, but I do hope to do something for it this year. I just don't know what. This is my first Hallowe'en on my own - I think I need to get my decorations from home and put my houses up. Following All Hallow's Eve comes the Christmas rush...it shall soon be upon us.

I'm rather looking forward to my first Christmas on my own...

Thanks to my father I recently got some pictures up on my walls. This place is finally starting to feel like home. Moving out has been possibly one of the best things for me. Ditching Safeway was another wise move, and I've found in recent weeks my stress level has dropped off drastically. Plus now I can sleep properly. Adjusting to the new hours at my new job has been a trial and my sleep cycle is still very much up in the air, but I'm glad to have something akin to stability in my life.

I apologize to those who have been searching for updates, but during this stage of constant transition I've found my online time has been limited. Despite the fact that I now spend eight hours a day at a computer I haven't yet had a chance to write down my thoughts...until tonight...and tonight I only have one thought on my mind:

Life is good.

------------------------------------------------

Her face is a map of the world,
You can see she's a beautiful girl,
And everything around her is a silver pool of light ,
People who surround her feel the benefit of it,
It makes you calm, she'll hold you captivated in her palm,

Suddenly I see, this is what I want to be,
Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me,
Suddenly I see, this is what I want to be,
Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me...